So far the New Year has been interesting. Do you ever have the feeling that you just want to write? You don't care what, but you just want to write and write and write until you are so far over it, you just delete it? I have had that feeling a few times. I have never actually written anything down though. The urge normally hits me at work, and I will never log into this there. But I do have to say I have made a friend with someone that I never thought I would. He makes me feel like a person, an individual, special. Not in a relationship type of way. But just as a friend would do. He makes my life feel like it does have value. However I am afraid to accept it for what it is. I almost feel like he just feels obligated to be nice. Silly me. Also, I have been sick lately. Tummy upset, nauseated and stressed. My hair is falling out and my skin is blotting. I am more in a meh mood. Meh seems safe. This is the story of a girl Who cried a river and drowned the whole world And ...