Random Thoughts From A Not So Confused Mind.

It's been about a week.  I am still super upset about the entire situation. I have lost about ten pounds. I know, not healthy, but I am sure I will gain it right back. I miss him terribly and still love him very much. But I know sometimes we need to walk away from someone who isn't willing to save themselves.  He doesn't believe in God or religion. And I know that most don't. But for those that do, please pray for him and his family. Pray that he will get healthy and love himself so he can be the best person he can be. Pray for his happiness with me. Please. And thank you.

The title is how long my recent relationship lasted. I ended it today, yes me.  It's not because I don't love him. But because he is not taking care of himself. As always, lets air my dirty laundry on the faceless internet world.  I grew up with an alcoholic father. It really did some damage. I did years of Al-anon, Ala-teen, all of it AA Programs for family members that are dealing with alcoholics. It helped me understand that it's not my fault and I can't make them change. Sure, it made me grow up far too quickly, but my mom was protecting us and making sure we understood why this was happening. I couldn't have asked for a better mom. And even though my dad is and will always be an alcoholic, I love him.  The reason I am telling you this is because my Boyfriend is an alcoholic. Well, not my boyfriend anymore. I have talked to him about his drinking issues before and I thought we had been doing good. But as I should have known, he is only going to tell me wha...