Random Thoughts From A Not So Confused Mind.

Do you ever realize how fast everything goes? Like I thought I had more time, but time has just gone away with out a care. Friends Leaving. Family soon to follow. But the Odd thing is. People Leave and a new beginning is about to come. So I think. But we shall see. Also. I lost a really cool earing at that one place the other night. sadzors. O wells. :)

As I sit here and realize, that hey, maybe I am a bitch. But you know what. It is all I have. So everyone else can just fuck off and stop pretending you know me, guess what, you fucking don't. Yeah I say things I don't always mean, do things that make people uncomfortable , and do things that are just stupid. They aren't an excuse, this is me. So get over the fact that I may unintentionally hurt your feelings. You're not special . I do it to everyone else as well.

Okay. So back to some Drama. So right when I think everything is okay.... I had this issue with my friend in the previous post and his ex was saying how one of my friends sent her a myspace (that site is the devil btw.) saying that this isn't the first time I have tried to steel someones man. So like wtf. Someone who i thought could of been friends was just a lie. so what the fuck ever. I am so fucking over it right now. Ugh. Sorry a little more pissy today due to being sick.

Okay so my friend that I have been hanging out with has suddenly disappeared. :( He likes me though and no longer wants to hang out because I have said nothing but friends since the beginning. SO shitty. O well I guess. Hermit time once again. Which works for now seeing how I am super sick. Kind of snuck up on me. Lets see. Last week. I got in a fight with "his" Best Friend because he called me a whore. Fucker. Then my good friend decided to fight with me as well. My sister has decided to get up and move a million miles away. While she made this decision she isn't happy with it. Her way to cope is to yell at everyone. Curse and pretty much be insane. I hate it. Okay that was jus my little update. I really need to get ready for work now. Sitting here with just a bra and jeans and a towel in my hair, isn't helping my little cold that I have. So yeah. That was my update of drama for the week.

Okay, So it has been super crazy since the last time I have posted. I was told by the other girl that she is leaving and not coming back. Normally I would be excited over that. But I have come to like her. She is super fun and great to be around. I am going to miss that she is gone. Then at the same time I am happy because we can start our lives. However the Ex-Fiance has showed up and wants him back. SO I may just loose him. But for some reason, I can accept that. I know what should of happened and so does he. If we walk away now, we may not have another chance, but at least I know I tried. I stayed Loyal and I pushed possible relationships away.( which I do not regret at this time.) I have been a little mad at myself though. I have been drinking a whole lot. Been going to the bar with my super awesomesauce friend like every night. He just got dumped and it is because his Ex accused him of cheating with me. Which is all lies. But girls have their moments of "lets not trust...