Random Thoughts From A Not So Confused Mind.

So. I sit here an wonder about something that was said the other day. Is he just settling with me? Does he want more and doesn't want to look for it? I sure hope not. I would have to get up and walk away. I am trying to get the nerve to ask him right now while he sits in the other room playing an xbox game. /sigh.... Wish me luck.

So I finally got in a position at work that has a Higher Possibility of becoming a Manager of a Team. I am super excited. Now I just have to hope that I don't Mess it up. Today will be my first day on my new position. Yay!! On a side note. I have moved in with the Boy. And we have met each other's parents. Kinda cool. It was a little Nerve Wracking but I guess that is normal. Then we went and saw the Midnight Showing of Harry Potter. That made the whole evening not as stressful. :) All in All.. If any one cares. I am happy and content for the time being. Need to figure out how to make this boy marry me. (Don't worry, I'm not crazy and I am Not gonna get preggo so I can keep a man. I am better than that.) Any ways Lots of Love!

Okay. So I have dropped my sister off in Texas. Totally Sucks, but hey. I miss her and I know I will see her at Christmas. Then I was hoping that my "Man" would go to the Wedding with me tomorrow. Technically today since it is like 1am. But he won't and it sucks. I am going to ask him the big questions when he gets home... "Do you love me, Or are you In Love with me." We will see how that goes. I have basically moved in and regardless of the answer he gives, I will stay here because I am indeed in love with him and hope someday he will feel the same if he already doesn't. Side Note... I think it is strange that I still write to random people. I don't even know if any one reads this. And why would they want to? It is mostly just me bitching and crying how bad my life is.. when it really isn't So many other people have it worse off then I do. To my sister.. if you read this.. I miss you dearly and I love you. It will be okay, you will be okay and ever...