Random Thoughts From A Not So Confused Mind.

 I stayed at a toxic job for 13 years. At first, it was because I loved my job. I loved the culture and the people and everything it stood for. I was a gamer at the time, even if it was not a good one. I thought I had the best job in the world. I put up with the sexual harassment, I put up with not getting a promotion and swore it wasn't because I was female. I put up with unwanted comments. I did this and watched as I lost who I was. I also stayed because it was a stable income while I was going through a shitty breakup and I needed to support my kids.  I know that I get jack shit for child support, but I don't care because I love my kids and I do what I can to support them on my own. I always will. But, I obviously need a job to do that. So I kept at a job that I hated and didn't realize I hated until I was laid off.  I know I have talked about this before, but it is important to talk about it today. Today has been a big day for me and a lot of crying. But not sad tears...

This world we live in is so hateful and crazy. I cannot believe that I used to think it was not as bad as it is, I was so wrong. When my ten year old daughter asks me if she is safe going to school and I have to pause and think about it, it is scary. She is not full Asian as I am not Asian, but being part Asian, she is afraid to go to school. She is afraid of being discriminated against because she is proud of her ancestry and has always been vocal about that part of her life. I have always taught her to do so. I don't want her to hide any bit of who she is for any reason and now she is afraid that because some part of her is a certain way, she will be discriminated against. That is not fair, she is too young to have that fear, yet here we are. Her fears are somethig that come with past bullying at school due to her being a "mixed breed" as some of the evil children used to call her. She never really was able to fit in with anyone due to her multiracial background. It is ...