Random Thoughts From A Not So Confused Mind.

So it has been way over a year since I last post. My son is now over a year old and our little girl will be here within the next 4 weeks. I am still with the original person that I started writing this blog about. I can say it has not been easy and sometimes I just want to give up. I never did get that promotion. Today was a hard reminder, that I never will. I don't know if I am happy anymore. I seem to be lost 90% of the time. I feel that nothing I do will ever be great for anyone at all. That I am here to just be here. I am also scared that my depression will come back. ( had post-partum ). I am actively attempting to prevent that. However when you feel alone , lost and not loved, it is a bit hard to do. We did book a wedding site and I ordered my dress. So that is a plus. I also got an interview for a position on our main campus. I don't really expect to get it, however just getting an interview alone is enough for me. Well it is past my bed time. I wake up early with my s...

So I am now 9 months preggers. Due any day. Sitting at home, on maternity leave. Another promotion was given to someone else since I am on leave. Makes me sad. But I guess it just motivates me to stay a full 6 weeks out instead of 3 weeks. Whatever works right. Christmas is just around the corner, still don't have a tree or all of my gifts. But I will be doing last minute shopping this weekend with my mother. I don't have a car and I can't have him take me or he will know what he is getting. ( Note: I do have a car, it is just being loaned at the moment since I am unable to drive it. ) Anyways, just a small update.

As a life grows Something is left untold People always change Nothing ever remains the same Only one thing keeping you together An unborn light in the dark Hold on to the hope And maybe the love will unfold.

That's Right! I have teh baby!!

This one will be short! I am preggers and baby is on the way!

So I finally was able to get an interview for the position I wanted. However , it was during a very hectic week. Death in the family followed by two more members going to the hospital. My head was not in the interview. My love also had an interview for the same spot. He got it. The told him that day. Now even though I didn't get a denial, he got the word he got one of the spots. So, I know I am not accepted. yay for stress.

So I was looking at my calender. And I have had a tough but great year, we are going on our year anniversary very soon. :) I really don't have much time. Work kills, I mean calls.