Random Thoughts From A Not So Confused Mind.

Okay So my birthday just passed. Honestly, it sucked. But O well. Then went on Vacation for a week and realized How much I love the person I am with right now. (Yes the same one from Below) I missed him so very much while I was out on Vacation. And he missed me. I get home and I just went straight to him. Didn't even hang out with the parents for more than 10 minutes. Well that is my cheesy, lame update. Love you all.

So it has been a month. I am happy. I am Content. However sometimes still lonely. Is that right? I shouldn't be Lonely.. I should feel that I am loved back. I know that he cares, But I don't think enough to be serious. "Boyfriend and Girlfriend is just a title" Pft, one that I would like to claim.... However, he isn't biting... If someone does read this, Please post a comment. What Should I do? Give it more time? Or walk away? I just don't know anymore.

So it has been awhile since I have done any updates. So here It goes. Everything seems to be okay. We are taking this slow and just seeing what happens. I guess we are exclusively seeing each other just not dating. So basically no fooling around with other guys. But like isn't this like dating? Cuz seeing each other is casual? O well.

So, It finally has happened. But I am not at this moment to happy. I lost a good friend in all of this. And not like lost, but lost the chance to have them around whenever I needed to just stop on by. I will miss her tons. Then at the same time, I am unsure If I am what he wants. After everything we have gone through and talked about. He may just end up a "Fuck Budy". Would kind of blow, but its comfort ya know?.. O well. We shall see what happens. I may just move with my sister. Take It Easy!!

So this is the month that I will found out if this is meant to be. We shall see. I have my doubts, but who doesn't ya know. Off to work I go.

Do you ever realize how fast everything goes? Like I thought I had more time, but time has just gone away with out a care. Friends Leaving. Family soon to follow. But the Odd thing is. People Leave and a new beginning is about to come. So I think. But we shall see. Also. I lost a really cool earing at that one place the other night. sadzors. O wells. :)

As I sit here and realize, that hey, maybe I am a bitch. But you know what. It is all I have. So everyone else can just fuck off and stop pretending you know me, guess what, you fucking don't. Yeah I say things I don't always mean, do things that make people uncomfortable , and do things that are just stupid. They aren't an excuse, this is me. So get over the fact that I may unintentionally hurt your feelings. You're not special . I do it to everyone else as well.