Maternity Leave

Second baby is finally here. She is wonderful. Sleeps all the time, and by herself at night. ( well not sleeping on my chest. ) Her big brother sometimes gets a bit jealous. But that will always happen. Speaking of big brother, he said his first sentence on Father's Day. Said " Wanna go round". It was soooo adorable. And he is also going pee in a big boy potty.

Not sure how everything else is going. It really seems all messed up. Got yelled at and called a bitch in public. Was very embarassing. It made me think and want to step back and not continue. But I have two kids and need to attempt to work it out. Just feels pointless when it seems I am always the one having to compromise and none from him. Nothing I do ever seems to matter or make a difference.

Job situation still makes me sad. No room for advancement is making me hate going. I am hoping that when I get back from leave I can get into a different department so I can stay there. I love my company, just hate my department. I didn't get the position I interviewed before ONLY because one person had expierence and I didn't. I got a personal call from the third from the top of the company to let me know he feels that I will do well for the company. Just need that to happen.

That is enough crying for tonight.

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