Mothers Day

I cannot believe it is already Mother's Day. I am excited as my unemployement has finally processed and there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I have been sitting here waiting for it to process for a month now and nothing. I have called over 500 times and E-mailed once a day for the past two weeks. Needless to say, this was the best mother's day gift I could get. Though, requirements have changed and it now says I must be looking for work even though before I didn't need to as I am in school full time. So I may have messed something up. The entire thing is confusing.

In other news, all has been quiet in the crazy front, at least for a few days. Which means we may have an interesting week ahead of us. I have a week off from school and I need to find an internship. I need to use this week to see if I can find someone who will take me. Life is just crazy right now and I am trying to take it one day at a time.

Short blog for tonight, be good to one another and remember that kindness may be hard sometimes, but it is worth it in the end.

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