Hard Times

So I am just getting worse and not better. I can't seem to concentrate anymore. Everything just keeps spinning. I did finally call to set up and appointment to get my direction back. So we shall see what happens there. Sometimes I wonder if I am doing the right thing by staying with him. I sure hope I am. I used to not be able to imagine my life without him, however I can now. I see myself with my babies older and me dating. Is this just because I am hurt? Or is this what is supposed to happen. I just don't know.
I am tired ... to much today.

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